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It's Insane.It's like knife running through me,  Stop saying you care.  Everytime you do,  You could not even comprehend,  the feels that exhilarate through,  every filament of my body.   
It's insane.   
I don't want this heart ache,  Cause I feel pathetic about it.  I don't want this emotion,  It leads me to darkness,  And contempt.   
It's insane.   
Your not that attractive,  Your not that cool,  Your not that smart,  Then why oh fucking why?!!  Am I drawn to you.   
It's insane.   
Every night my dreams,  slip into distor It's Insane.
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QuestioningWhy don't you care anymore?   
Through the course of time,  and brain tampering addictions,  your feelings have ceased to exist.   
I remember when you were kinder,  and more understanding,  I remember when you loved,  and when you cried,  I remember when we were close,  but no longer. I really wonder why.   
Don't you fucking get that I love you,  I'd do anything for you,  When you emotions take the best of your soul,  Mine hurts right along.  You used to be worried,  about mine too,  But I've been forgotten,  Why have you left me?    Questioning
by ~dark-lotusgirl
Stop Being So DamnStop being so damn ignorant,  It's not only hurting you,  But everyone else around you,  and you can't even see it.  
 
Stop being so damn selfish,  you only think about yourself,  always have,  can't you learn from your mistakes?   
Stop being so damn manipulative,  are you lying to me?  are you cheating everyone?  cause if you are, fuck you.   
Stop being so damn innocent,  cause I know you aren't,  I've seen it before,  and it makes me sick.   
Stop being so damn nice,  your only hurting yourself on the way,  its time for you to le Stop Being So Damn
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NaNoWriMo - First PieceChapter 1                 I could hardly believe the irony.  
 
 
I was back. Back to the place that squeezed my insides, chewed my tendons, stretched the hard bone, sliced my muscles, ate my organs and spit me back out, a whole person. The icy air from lack of a heater pierced through my thin green jacket and caused me to shudder head to toe, making flashes of the past reappear in my mind, so clear. It must've been yesterday. Glancing at the thin gold watch between the mesh of multicolored bracelets that covered my wrists I saw, as always I wa NaNoWriMo - First Piece
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I like the colors of the bullets.

Sat Nov 7, 2009, 8:14 AM
Let's just say it has not been a very good week. Or month. Or year. Bad things always disguise themselves in lots of good, then screw me over. And it's getting really old, boring, tiring, and stupid. Really.

:bulletred: I've given up on NaNoWriMo. I just have no motivation anymore, and it's not cause it's long and that I don't have time. Well, that is like 1% of why I gave up. The rest is just my motivation levels just sunk. Alot. It's kinda stupid, when I'm really pist off or sad, all my motivation and want to do things just die. But yeah.

:bulletorange: Some of my friends are being very dumb.

:bulletyellow: I am so stressed out. School is not that hard, actually is sorta is, but it's still just really stressing me out. I'm always stressed out. It's causing me to get sick for no reason.

:bulletgreen: I don't even know why this pissed me off so much. I was sad, and who texts me? Yep, that kid. And asks what's wrong. Then I sorta tell him to go away cause I don't wanna talk to him cause I'm trying to stop liking him. What does he do after that? He goes on a rant about how much he cares about me and how I'm worth it and that he loves me etc. He meant as just a friend. But that automatically puts me in a really sad mode. Cause I really like him. There is nothing great about him at all except that he is nice. And there is another who I fancy. But no. Nothing I really want comes to me, all that I don't just flocks to me. Ugh.

:bulletblue: I'm getting all depressed again. I need to get out of my house, but they never let me. I dont get why. It's not like I'll die. *sighs* I dont know.

:bulletpurple: I wanna die some of my hair purple. But is it gonna happen? No. You know why? Cause things just never really work out, from the biggest most important stuff, to the little things.

Sigh. Goodbye. I'm done venting.

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~LeFloozy Oct 15, 2009, 7:47:43 PM
Thank you for the Fav! :)
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~dark-lotusgirl Oct 17, 2009, 10:28:25 AM
oh course :)

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*joeiepaul Oct 10, 2009, 2:56:03 PM
Hey thanks for the fave :hug: :heart:

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~dark-lotusgirl Oct 11, 2009, 11:27:14 AM
uh huh :)

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~mmnkino Oct 7, 2009, 7:48:04 AM
Thanks for the fav :D
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~dark-lotusgirl Oct 7, 2009, 3:56:52 PM
yep :)
candice!!!!! dontcha know who i am?! hahaha :)

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~mmnkino Oct 8, 2009, 7:35:42 AM
Oh I do xD Just thanking you anyway
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~dark-lotusgirl Oct 8, 2009, 3:03:20 PM
haha :) coolio

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*joeiepaul Oct 5, 2009, 7:36:20 PM
thank you for the fave

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~dark-lotusgirl Oct 6, 2009, 6:13:16 PM
your welcome :)

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